Keith Urban complained about being “lonely and miserable” while on tour before he and Nicole Kidman called it quits on their 19-year marriage.
The country music star reflected on the hardships of touring in an upcoming episode of his competition series, “The Road,” according to the Daily Mail.
“Where do we start?” Urban, 57, asks in the episode, which premieres on Oct. 19. “It’s a calling, and you’re going to do it or you’re not going to make it.”
The “You’ll Think of Me” singer explains that the show must always go on — regardless of how he’s feeling.
He reflects, “When you wake up on a tour bus at 3:30 in the morning and you’re sick as a dog, you’re in the middle of nowhere and you’ve got to play your fifth show later that night, and you haven’t slept, and you miss your friends, and you’re missing your family, and you’re completely lonely and miserable and sick — and you say to yourself, ‘Why am I doing this?’”
“The only answer can be: Because this is what I’m born to do,” he continues.
The CBS and Paramount+ series follows 12 artists competing as opening acts for Urban at music venues across the country.
Urban’s candid comments about his struggles on tour surfaced just weeks after Page Six confirmed that he and Kidman had separated.
“Sometimes relationships just run their course,” a source told us in September, adding that Kidman, 58, “did not want the separation and was trying to save things.”
TMZ reported at the time that Urban had moved out of their family home and that Kidman was taking care of their daughters: Sunday Rose, 17, and Faith Margaret, 14. (Kidman also shares two adult children with her first husband, Tom Cruise.)
“[Kidman is] holding the family together through this difficult time since Keith has been gone,” a source told the outlet, referring to his current tour.
Days later, rumors swirled that Urban and his guitarist, Maggie Baugh, were romantically involved after clips of the two musicians looking flirty onstage surfaced online.
Maggie’s father, Chuck Baugh, denied the speculation, telling the Daily Mail, “I don’t know anything about it, other than she’s a guitar player for him.”
“It’s more of a musician thing than a dating thing,” he added.
Meanwhile, a clip resurfaced of Maggie saying she was against band romances.
While Kidman has not directly addressed their split, she did share a message about her resilience in an interview with Harper’s Bazaar published last week.
“There’s something to knowing that no matter how painful, or how difficult, or how devastating something is, there is a way through,” she said.
Cracks between Kidman and Urban started to show in June when Urban abruptly ended a Zoom interview after he was asked about Kidman’s steamy love scenes with Zac Efron in the 2024 Netflix movie, “A Family Affair.”
The “Big Little Lies” actress and Urban met at the G’Day USA gala in January 2005 and tied the knot a year later.