Influencer Emilie Kiser issued a heartbreaking statement about the death of her 3-year-old son, Trigg.
The toddler was found unresponsive in a backyard swimming pool in Chandler, Ariz., on May 12.
Kiser wrote via Instagram Thursday that the loss of her son “feels impossible to put into words.”
“I’ve spent days, weeks, months trying to find them and also take the time I’ve needed to digest the loss of my baby,” she added in the lengthy note, in which the comments were turned off.
“Trigg is our baby and our best friend,” the social media star continued. “The light and spirit he brought into this world was bright, pure, joyful, and undeniable.”
Kiser — who also shares 5-month-old son Theodore with husband Brady Kiser — noted that she and her family miss her oldest son “every second of every day and continuing forward often feels unbearable.”
“I never thought we would experience grief in this way or the pain of losing him so suddenly. It’s a pain, heartache, and void that no family should ever have to endure,” she said.
Emilie noted that she takes “full accountability as Trigg’s mother” for what happened to him.
“I know I should have done more to protect him. One of the hardest lessons I carry is that a permanent pool fence could have saved his life, and it’s something I will never overlook again,” she said.
“I hope amidst this pain, Trigg’s story will help prevent other children and families from suffering the same loss.”
Trigg died while his dad, Brady, was distracted and placing a sports bet on an NBA game. However, the patriarch dodged charges because “there is no reasonable likelihood of conviction,” officials said.
The Maricopa County Attorney’s Office explained, “The state has to prove beyond a reasonable doubt to a unanimous jury that the person failed to perceive a substantial and unjustifiable risk, and that failure to perceive the risk was a gross deviation from the standard of care a reasonable person would show.”
In her statement, Emilie thanked her family for their “support” and “unconditional love” during this time.
“The way you show up is something we will never be able to repay or thank you enough for. We truly have the best and most supportive friends and family who have, quite literally, carried us through this and continue to do so daily,” she added before also thanking her followers.
“The only way through grief is to keep going minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, and every moment since that day I’ve done my best to keep picking myself up,” the influencer continued.
Emilie concluded her post by sharing that she will establish “boundaries” surrounding what she shares online moving forward, but hopes to be able to be more open about how she is “navigating this grief.”
She wrote, “All I can say is thank you for the love, compassion, patience and space you’ve given us to grieve. I am more grateful for it than can ever be expressed.”